Single Girl Problems

Last night was magical. 

I've decided not to wait around and be Jared's play thing so instead, I caught up with Scott, this martial arts, surfing, freaking HOT blonde fellow that I went on a date or two with in the past. 

I really thought that it was just going to be a friendly thing, especially when he confessed to having taken his ex-girlfriend back when we were sitting around a crackling bonfire on the beach last night. 

I decided not to let it bother me because it wasn't planned as a 'date,' anyway, it was just two friends catching up! But, as the night wore on, we realised that we were really gelling. Like, really, REALLY gelling. 

He told me that the reason he took his ex back is because I moved on after our dates a few months back. 

See, when we went on a date or two in the past, it was incredible. It was always so spontaneous and fun but he was still getting over his breakup and I didn't want to push things so I gave him space until we eventually just pretty much lost touch!

He kissed me last night. 

He was saying things along the lines of leaving his girlfriend (I can't remember it all as i was pretty drunk... oops). He said he wasn't happy with her and that he liked me. 

We were rolling around in the sand (I literally had buckets of sand in my hair and my ears this morning... Awesome!). We were kissing and tackling, laughing and playing on the beach. It was amazing and felt just as natural as the last time I saw him.  

It's now nearly been 24 hours and we haven't spoken since we said goodbye. 

i don't know if he regrets it or if maybe he's trying to find a way to break up with his girlfriend before contacting me again... I just don't know. 

Of course I feel bad for her. I don't want to be a home-wrecker. But Scott's amazing and when we're together it's just so refreshing and happy! 

So I'll see how that one plays out...

In other news, things with Jared are.. for lack of a better word... shit. 

One of the main reasons I branched out to Scott last night is because Jared has been so weird about being exclusive with me. That's all I want at the end of the day. To be a girlfriend. To fall in love. 

I don't want to be juggling men!!!

But Jared wants to take things slowly and then he goes off on weekends away and I have no idea if we're monogamous or not! It's confusing. So I asked him to give it to me straight so that I understand better and he admitted to being distant lately. He said that the fact that his friend, Craig, used to like me, bugs him and he's worried about it. I get that. Of course I do. He said that he's also worried about getting too attached. He's 34, a lot older than me... so I guess I understand that too.. he's at an age where if he dates someone he needs to be able to see a future with them I guess??? 

I told him that I respect his friendship with Craig and I'd never want to jeopardise it, but that he needs to respect me too. The balls in his court and I don't want to be strung along or taken for a fool... especially since I've been warned on what a man whore he is!!!

Jared said that he really does like me but I can't help but get this feeling that he's taking this as a big joke.

My mother (yes, I confided in her. Oh dear God, that's my first problem right there!!) said that I should just 'have fun.'

Technically I'm still single, she said, and told me to have fun and take my time. 

So whether it be Scott, Jared or freaking Seth (still ew...) only time will tell. 

Single girl problems...... ai ai ai....